Still alive...

I have been havin' a quite rough time lately... So I haven't have the strength to write anything in here But I have been writing in my own language to my other blog.

Well my depression is getting deeper and my medication changed after today's meeting with the doctor. I'm in total fatigue and still going to the day center every day. So I'm not feeling that well.

Hardest thing for me is that the doctor adviced me to take a break from my studies. It is a very difficult decision to me as I love my studies, but I understand that I'm not up for it right now.. Lots of tears I've had in my day...

But I'm lucky to have such wonderful friends, they are takin' care of me and are supporting me during this difficult time. But so that this isn't totally depressing post I'll add here some pics...

As I couldn't do paper because my thumb was lookin like this

My thumb is allright already it was just a cut... Nothing serious.

But here's the beautiful self-made paper that my friend made for me as my thumb was like that.

And then I want to show you what I personally did in DC for the first time in my life, felting... This is what I did, how do you like it? I'm very proud of it...

And few pics of my wonderful therapist Wilma. She stays with me at my sofa right beside me as she knows that I'm feeling sad and depressed. Then she comes to me to be cuddled and then she sets herself in a good position and goes to sleep. She can stay with me for hours like this. Aint she a cutest thing?

BTW. I finally now what I will be after my studies ( in english I mean)

I am student in Degree Program of Grafts an Recreation and when I graduate I will be a Bachelor of Culture and Arts...

A Better day?

I slept quite well last night, went to sleep about midnight, woke up about 7.30, but got something to drink and came back to bed and slept till noon.

I'm feelin a bit better emotionally today, but the flu has gotten the better of me. So I have taken the heavier armory to use ... more medicin, vitamin c, cough medicin , orangejuice even more, resting and so on...

Oh and not to forget, Wilma has been by me, almost all day, taking care of me...

I also made up my mind to start a joga course. With my friend. Tuesday mornings at 7 till 8. Risky business as we are both nightpersons, but we decided to try. If we get in to the course.. We'll need to wait till 7.1. to find out.

I also have been reading 'Paolo Coelho's Light Warrior's handbook', book ;) It's very interesting, I like it...

So I feel much more calmer today, maybe it's because of the meds,=D Who knows But I think this is a better day.

Taking it easy...

I had a peaceful and wonderfully fussyfree Christmas. I spent it at home with my friend, eating at little and chatting and chilling. I think this is a way Christmas should be spent. Without any fuss, just a few presents( if you must) with good company and taking it easy.

Well enough about that , I had a good Christmas.

On 25th we left for a cruise to Stockholm, with 2 youngters ( 14 and 16 years) our godsons. It was their first time ever on a cruise, and this was our christmas present to them. We had a blast. We laughed a lot, the food was good, and Stockholm was vibrant as ever. So It was a good trip, too.

After that I have been totally exhausted and sleeping a lot. As I have deep depression all this has taken the juices out off me. So I decided to just chill and rest today.

Got to tell you that our cat Wilma, was slighty offended to me when we got home from the cruise. She totally ignored me, but hubby got to bamber her but not me. As the night began to fall she finally started to get nearer to me too...

First she came, quite close, to wash herself and so on...

Then I got to touch her a little ( still ignoring me)

And finally we slept side to side for 3 hours...

Ain't she something else? I love her so...