My wall is cracking...

Finally friday... Have had a rough week at the DC. Altough it's so enjoyable to spent time with people who really do understand you and can be very supportive, going there feels like a full-time job. As I might have told you my therapist said that she thinks I should take a little timeout from studies. I have been thinking about it and it's so hard for me to say that she's so right. I am demanding towards myself and I can't focus on my studies right now. So I'm skipping this weekends school days.. And continue thinking what to do with my studies...

Had a therapy session today... It was tough and I cried a lot, again... I think that my protection wall is cracking down bit by bit...

You know... It's really hard to REALLY look yourself in the eyes (so to speak) , and ask what you really are and what you want to be and so on... And before you can answer any of these questions you need to go through all the stuff that isn't all right in your life and try to make things better if you can, if you can't then.... make the necessary changes... but you can't make the changes before you have enough strength in you to do so...

Oh my... There's a tough journey ahead of me....

This and That...

Well here we go...

I finally found a background that pleases me , so this blog can go on living...

I think I'll start by going over my situation, right now.

I am on a sickleave. I haven't been at work since 15th of September. I'm seriously depressed. Iam unhappy at my work, at home, marriage and so on. I'm going through a rough crisis. Lots have happened past year and as I tried to take care of everyone else , I forgot to take care of me.

Only things that keep me going are my wonderful friends and my studies. I have started studies for an higher education in August. I do love studying and am trying to hang in there with the other group.

I will be using this blog as a therapy, trying to write down my feelings and things that go on in my life. Also I am trying to practise my english =D

Today I feel exhausted and I'm going to try and relax for rest of the day...

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